Something is making me a bit anti-social.

Yupp.. You've read it right (the title). Recently, a lot of my friend settled down. I mean getting married. And most of them invited me to their walimatul urus. However, I turned down most of it. Some of it is because I've got another important thing to do. But most of it because I don't want to go. Luckily for the time being, the one who got married is not what I consider as a very close friend. We are friend but not a close one. When I think about it, I thing I might've got the answer why I don't want to go. It's because I don't want to draw so many question which my friend will ask about me. And most importantly, I don't want to let myself down by looking at my friend having earn their own money from their own job or buying their own car by their own earning. Let's face it, I'm the only one (that I know) who haven't left student years yet. I'm the only person who are still struggling with my bachelor degree. I've got nothing to shout about myself. Sorry friends. I will not coming to any of you're walimatul urus for at least the next one and a half year. Because I'm not prepared to face the shame yet.